Today is my first break from my new employment. We’ll work a short day tomorrow, have about a week off after that and then work a 60-80 hour week for a couple different shows. One of the upcoming shows is Prom at Lebanon High School. That ought to be interesting. I wonder if I’ll see Shelly. I was there once years ago.I like the work so far. There’s a lot of heavy lifting and moving, but it feels good to be doing something, and getting paid for it. I am feeling more real than I have in a while. I’m not any closer to a decision about my marriage. I talked to her for a while after I moved all my stuff out. She was surprised. She didn’t expect me to move everything. That was the impression I got. She called, very upset. She later accepted that what I did was probably for the best and that maybe she had meant that when she asked me to move stuff. So we talked for a couple hours and I remain about as confused as I have ever been. If someone where to ask me if I wanted to be married, I would say no. However, if someone were to ask me if I want to get divorced, I would also say no. So where does that leave me? Stuck, as usual.

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